It's because of the fact that it happened many times before that made the fear come alive, yet even with much explanation, it gets through to no one. You think that by giving it your all, everything else will just fade. What a stupid thought.
You tell yourself that this time it would be different, but who are you fooling? And maybe it is but at the other end of it, it's just the same old routine coming in a different way. It's time to wake up from this little fantasy you've been hoping for. You should have listened to that voice inside of you, it knew what was coming but your stubborn-ness decided to ignore it and look at where you're at now. Earphones on and singing your heart out. You really should have listened.
It may not be what I want,
But maybe it's just what I need.