Can You Feel It

"Some Cupid kills with arrows, some with traps."
Shakespeare

You keep thinking that you'll be treated the same way you've treated others, only to find out that things are never what it looks like. Perhaps you've already said it before but others just don't get it because somehow they think you're over-reacting, but the truth is, it always stays there no matter how much you try to ignore it.

It's because of the fact that it happened many times before that made the fear come alive, yet even with much explanation, it gets through to no one. You think that by giving it your all, everything else will just fade. What a stupid thought.

You tell yourself that this time it would be different, but who are you fooling? And maybe it is but at the other end of it, it's just the same old routine coming in a different way. It's time to wake up from this little fantasy you've been hoping for. You should have listened to that voice inside of you, it knew what was coming but your stubborn-ness decided to ignore it and look at where you're at now. Earphones on and singing your heart out. You really should have listened.

A get away.
It may not be what I want,
But maybe it's just what I need.

No U-Turn

Just a little to update this dead blog..

My weekends have been full, literally but it's been awesome! And somehow there's this joy in me that I can't seem to explain :D Nevertheless, here's a little something on the current crossroads...

Wait, before that,
It's the weekends again. How can I not love it ;D

Everyday we're being thrown face to face with decisions we have to make. Whether it's just something small for tomorrow or for the distant future, every decision made affects our future one way or another. It's the time of my life again where every answer I found would lead to another even bigger question. Afraid of making the wrong choice, I turn to my best friend who speaks to me through my conscious, hoping I'd find the answer hidden deep within.

Now, with everything stirring up in front of me, I try to stop it for even just a tick, but like a storm in a tornado, my efforts are simply being flushed down by the mere pressure of time. If only time could stop for just a moment, I'd wish to go back to that few minutes where the noise of the world was being overpowered by my favourite song. Because just for that moment, the whole world seemed to fade away like dust.

I'm not saying this plaintively but actually with much joy and doubt. I've become fatigue on this same ceaseless question for some time and I wish there was a direct remedy to it. Like a kid standing hoverly in the middle of the field, I wonder what to do next. What if what I think is right isn't really what's best for me?

We're being led on what we should aim for now. Mid-terms, Trials and SPM. Then what's next? It's time to grow up Jelly, make a choice, dream big, have an aim, and stick with it. It's okay to dream because dreams lead you to places you think you'll never reach. No one has to know what they are. Fly high, even without wings. You've got one shot.

April's Must-Do's

• Start chemistry tuition, whether I like it or not
• Start Practical
  
• Start those long-time planned-plans with Am & Val
• Go for rock climbing again, it's been so long :(
• Catch up on all the many movies I've missed

5 Things I miss:

Her

Weekends


Holidays

Christmas by the beach


Last August @ Krabi :')

I like ODJ, I want one of my own.
Dreams do much good, even when they're unfulfilled :]

Memories of 2 Years Ago

CK & I have been lots of conversation lately about those time we had back in 08 with 3Kem. We were so united, almost like a family. I know our blog died, but like promised before, even if the blog dies, we wouldn't delete it. It's really nice to think about those times once in a while, and surprisingly those videos are still on youtube! Can't believe we were only Form3 back then and now we're Form 5. Oh how the memory lasts.

Kembhang Dance @ Cope Adventure

Guitar Hero Session @ Mak's

Water Blast Session

After PMR Celebration @ OU

"Family Potrait" on our last day

Redbox Session @ Curve

Genting

Shu Fei's Farewell

Paintball @ Ulu Langat

To all you 3Kem08 people out there, I know it's been so long but to come to think of it, I miss you guys :) I'm still waiting on our Camp in those air-conditioned tents :D

3Kempas08 =')
http://keepeverymomentpreciousandsilly.blogspot.com/
I still remember the conversation we had about the class blog's name.

HBD

At 12am later, it's gonna be a sesated person's birthday. I'll keep it really short so all I can say is you've been awesome. Thanks for always being there and most of all, thanks for being such an amazing friend :)

Aha, I remember this XD Super Classic.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACK! :D

Even though you're one year elder now, you'll always have an exceptional sense of direction =p

It's March!

This is what happens when Chemistry test is the next day.Yes, Chem is a real dread to me. And so at the end of the day I came up with a conclusion:

We'll start our bonding session in April, can't wait! xD

One week of rainbows is never enough but it's better than nothing :)

We've been having many conversations on how this might actually be the last holidays that we can really enjoy before everything changes, maybe it's true and maybe it's not. And then there's the part where everything has its pro's and con's but you know what I think? Screw it. You only live once, so live for the moment. Sure everything has their side effects but if you live with every detail thought out, then what is life? Do what you love and you'll never regret it. As long as it doesn't go against the way you are then it's worth it. Spontaneous is an awesome word, learn it, live it, be it :D

It Ends With A Smile

CNY holidays are ending, damn :(

Oh well, at least all the CNY must-do's has already been done :D

Some moments of the week that I like:

Devon's Temporary Return

Dylan & Zack was spinning around in front of shops xD


All the many family dinners & food & late nights & gambling & more food & YEE SANG ♥
I still didn't gain a single kg nor grew a single cm :(

I learned how to play Mahjong! Well, partially. Then I stopped learning cause of sugar xD Thank goodness Alex always temans me to syiok sendiri while the others were doing whatever they were doing ;D
AND ODE! What we did in the TV room. LOL =p

Our last minute movie planning.

"Eh, car!" We ran after every picture even though there were no car sometimes. Deryk looks so gay here.

The non-existant park outing that gave me tons of mosquito bites which I'll say is worth it. Someone tried to hide my slippers when I was just opposite him watching, damn sesated =p
But I like this day ;)

Our hotel-sleepover look alike day, it literally felt like a hotel, esp the bed :D Kesian Qi, went in the pool for only 5 minutes then had to go edi.


And finally, some time with them ;)
Finally got back a little something.

Oh school, i hate to go back to you :(

Lizzie, I miss you. We need to catch up, really.

LMAO :)

Terence: My name is April, call me May.

Cacated fella! :)

Cherades

The weekend was great. Weekends never fail to make my week. Seeing the same faces for three days straight is nothing but awesome.

Everyone was in their super random mode on Friday. From Fridays to Alex & Ange to Discovering Malaysia to Big Mac, I think I could've gotten Abs by the end of the day :D

Fellowship was cool. It was nice to have EVERY SINGLE ONE back together after rally. Theme? Red, Black or Gold. The friendship song reminded me what a loss it would've been not knowing them. It was nice to see how much closer we've become compare to our first few training camp.

And Sunday? Hehe :)

Gosh, you gotta love the weekends ;D
Can't wait for CNY holidays!

Three

Doesn't Aili look like Tweety Bird here? ;D

Someone asked me "How's 2010 so far?"
And I said "Not better than 2009"
But I'm hoping it will be, soon :)
I just realized how often we neglect all the tiny details that makes this world beautiful. If only we had the time stop to admire it.

I feel like shutting down my blog, yea?

Why is everyone falling sick lately?

I logged in fb when I was using that com & I forgot to log out. Oh crap, damn insecure now la. So if anything weird or un-llike me kinda things happen, I'm sorry.

Since no one uploaded the JYM outing pics, so I finally decided to upload it on fb, but it's taking forever, I might just give up on it man -.-

Somehow the little things done could miraculously keep my smile on for days :)

Seventeen

This is a post worth posting cause there's so many people I wanna thank...

17th Birthday was well spent. First up was Countdown with The Cousins after Practice. Thanks guys :)

And for the day itself?

Well around 30 of us, DJians gathered together for a pool party for my birthday and it started late cause of the schtooopid rain, I forgot to consider the fact that it would rain bt thank God it stopped soon after. Anyway, I'm not gonna type everything we did, I guess that'll be something for those who went to know :)

Alright, I really need to thank these people, alot:
-Parents, for the whole thing
-Uncle Jacob & Family for the place
-Chels, Boh & the others whom I know went through alot of thinking due to the many "secret -discussions" they've been having in school
-Felicia & Qi for helping out with the games
-The 16 people for giving me the ultimate birthday present :D
-Everyone who went & made the party awesome
-Everyone who wished me
-And if I missed out anybody, I'm sorry

I hope you guys had a blast :)

Pictures? There are 300+ in my camera alone, so pass me your thumb drives if you want it yeah. Pictures from Rueben's camera is already in facebook though.


Our failed sisi jump shot

Recieved so many complaints from the residents due to too much noise pollution, but who cares man ;)

Boo looks like he spat blood out, literally.

Crap. I only have ONE more year to grow. I'll make it la... right?

Look at Val's serious face, aha :)

The 15 who shared the present, only Terence was missing

They're super cute to come up with the statement "Jelly of course must have Jelly cake" & actually made it happen

How do you expect someone to blow from that distance without moving? =)

Big Smiles :D
Oh oh please zoom in at Boo's face!

17, It's a figure I'm not used to yet.

Post Dedicated To MH

Yo man, whassup man, how you doing man, its your birthday man,and i wanna wish you a happy bday man. Peace out! Okay, enough of the crap.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL HO!

Anyway, I just wanna say, you're such an awesome person and I want you to know that we, the 09 team, loves you for who you are, not because your dancing is superb or any other reasons, but just because you're you, so don't ever forget that :) Remember, JC loves you ;p

Once

I woke up today feeling like it was all a dream, so I took a moment to recap everything to make sure i remembered every tiny detail, only to realize it was all real, from the very moment I received it. I sat down, held it in my hands and thanked God for the wonders :)

It was tough hanging upwards, really tough.

I need to go present shopping again and I'm broke :(

You gotta love the weekends :D

Kelab

So this was how Chels & I decided on our koku this year :)

Angelica
Chelsea
Gaston
Some Teacher
******
Eh, I wanna join something different this year.
Me too, what is there ah?
Come let's join F1! *Fiiiieeeewww* (Does the car racing sound)
Why don't....
*Fiiiieeeewww* (Does the car racing sound again) Actually what isit about?
You know last year the one where...
*Fiiiieeeewww* (Does the car racing sound again)
Hey, I'm usually the one making all these annoying sounds
*Fiiiieeeewww* (Does the car racing sound again)
*Fiiiieeeewww* (Does the car racing sound with me)
*Fiiiieeeewww*(Turns to Chels and does it together)

No seriously Chels, I wanna join something diff this year
Yeah, Leo damn boring
F1 on Friday, I don't want Friday, I want Thursday. Talked to Amelia & Val just now, we thought of joining DJ Net
What's that about?
Don't know. But takkan it's fishing right so we go there go online!
After they ask us to do website
Takkan they ask ppl who can't create a website to do one kan.
Eh no, serious one.
Then we do only la, they don't like not our fault, still can go online. Using school connection! 5 minutes to load one page! Oh no no wait, let's go Robotik!
Are you serious?
Why not! No idea what's that about but who cares. (Does that nerdy smile)
Okay, let's go for it! I feel nerdy already.

The next day...

Jelly, serious ah? Robotik?
I don't know! LOL, how?
Okay join.
Okay, serious ah.
Serious.
Okay, serious face!
(Both puts on serious face & walks up to the registration desk)
Seriously serious?
Yes serious.

At the registraion desk...

You girls wanna join robotik?
Yeah
You wanna join something that you have no clue what it's about?
Yeah (Signs up)
We might be changing it to Friday though.
-.- Why didn't you say earlier.
Jelly! I can't believe we're joining robotik!
Me too!
(Does the nerdy smile together)

Chelsea & Jelly in Robotik? (burst out laughing) YOU'RE KIDDING RIGHT? That was the reaction we got from others XD Holy Mama, I really still can't believe we joined it. Oh well, we're up for something different this year, so let's see how it works out :D

Aces & Spades

I haven't really figured out my new year resolutions yet and the first week is already about to come to its end. Other than the usual of scoring in SPM and all, it kinda feels the same as last year so I wouldn't call it a 2010 Resolution. I won't aim for straight A's in SPM because that's asking too much of myself, but I do have a goal for it.

I do have one resolution I want to fulfill this year though,

To Do Something More Outrageous Than Those In 2008 and 2009.

I have no idea what it is yet, but it's definitely in my list :)

This is super cute!

Class is finally feeling like last year again with them around, which is cool, I like :D The only thing that's missing is my Sha-Boo-Ya partner which actually makes a lot of difference, but we'll definitely still hang out yeah?

Someone asked me "Why don't you blog about what you do everyday?" I'm sorry but I only blog about what I feel about blogging, I don't wanna tell the whole world what happens in my daily life. Plus I only blog about my outings occasionally :)

Tmrw is Friday! BIG SMILES!

School

What a happy picture eh Anne? I like :)

Oh gosh. No matter how much I don't want it, tmr will come, eventually. But look at the bright side, I'll be able to catch up with them whom I miss and do those things again xD. So tell me, is it a good thing?

2008 was an awesome year, 2009 was amazing and 2010? We'll see ;D

Crept Upon My Soul

Tell me it's not happening :/

I really love this picture even though it's blur :)

Krispy Kreme's New Workers for 2010 :)

I wish time could just stop because I don't want the weekend to end.

New Year

Hola :)

Com is back. I am back from an island in Thailand.
This Christmas was spent on a beach :)
And 2010 is on it's way.

Gonna see them very often again soon :D

And the YROT09? I'm gonna miss them, truckloads.

Short Post

Dancing in the rain :D

Everyone's writing about how this journey has ended & how it won't be the same again. But I just want you guys to know that no matter what happens, the memories we had would not change & the friendship will remain.

Rally was Awesome!

Yes there'll be another bunch who will take over our places next year but it doesn't matter because we've already been given a chance to experience it. "Zero What!? Zero Nine!" we'll be the only one who holds this title, it belongs to us, now & forever.

Love them truckloads :)

I've been seeing those monkeys every single day for the past whole month or so & not seeing you guys now suddenly feels different lol anyway have fun with your remaining holidays people! We'll see each other again soon!